girly gang

dearest girlfriends,

i am in such a state now... i don't even know how to explain. i feel like a hermit. i miss spending time with friends. i miss having friends around me. it's depressing. you can't possibly imagine how alone i feel. it's like my support structure is non-existent. i miss you girls. i've got 2 tests later in the day and i can't be buggered to study. i simply haven't the mood.

anyway, dear qingya, don't get too depressed about dara alright? yes, i agree with gayle. she sounds neurotic and insecure. she's prob so used to being like that that she doesn't know how to deal with such a confrontation. she's just trying to find a way out and blaming it on you. perhaps it is best that she moves out, so you can have your peace and she can have time to think about the whole situation and realise how much you have been there for her and that she does have a problem. but keep in mind this is not a problem that will go away overnight. Let her be and know that you have done yoru part as a friend and if possible, be there for her when she needs you but don't make her problem your problem. i'm sure you have enough on your mind. sometimes i feel the most help you can be to a friend in such a situation is to throw them in the ocean and let them learn to swim on their own, not literally of course. and do take into account that i think she is trying. i really think so. the fact that after hanging up on you, you guys actually managed to spend almost the entire day together and having fun. she's still lapsing into her old habits but i think she's trying! don't fret, dear, all of us here all love you and know you did what you had to do and we appreciate you.


stel: i think that's a pretty cool idea. then as the years go on, we can have mire and more volumes....hahaha....we'll feel so stupid reading back at the entries 10 years down the road

i've been trying to sleep earlier and wake up earlier and do work in the morning cos i never get work done at night now cos i get back 8 or 9 from class tired and unable to study. but i doubt i can sleep early tonight. classmate made me a potent cup of coffee during the lecture break in the evening just now. (as i am typing here, i can hear some of my nieghbours or someone on the street having sex.....gross) we went to the post grad tea room for the business sch and make ourselves some free coffee though we're not actually allowed cos we're not from business sch but they can't really tell...and when we got there, they just finished some little celebration and had cakes and piza leftovers and like the greedy people we were, we helped ourselves to them and gobbled the food down, esp the guys (which is basically the whole class considering there are only 2 girls in it).

i can't take pictures of the cat, i have no digicam. oh well, life of a poor student. i'm waiting for someone to give me one.

who are the kiwi boys?

actually, working at the esplanade sounds like fun. it is at least a nice environment to work in. but careful of bitcy patrons. did you read the papers about the bobby mcferrin concert when late comers weren't let in till an hour later and how some got agitated and almost physical? but the training sounds like a drag but you'll prob get to meet new people. look on the bright side, at least you won't be expected to sing like in american idol.

maybe i should try and get some work done now since i'm nowhere near falling asleep esp with ben snoring behind me now.

CONGRATS STELLAAAAA!!!!!

finally......it's great you finished it.... now you can go party and relax and shop and have fun.....

my computer hates me. i think it's taking revenge on me because i reformatted it. it's refusing to accept my video card drivers and driving me nuts. spend ages on it and sacrificing my studying time for it. i'm so gonna fail next week

good news is that i've managed to seduce another cat into my house...hahaha...thisn one's all black and with yellow eyes. she's so pretty and is quite a large cat. i carried her and she's really heavy for a cat but not fat. i named her 'Flea'

hey there, girls.

i am sooo bogged down with work. i'mgot 2 tests next week which i've not even halfway through studying for, got group assignments due. individual assignments blah blah... and it's been freakin hot these few days. and i'm beginging to feel strangled. i need to get out and find my own friends to hang out. i need to have my own life. nowadays i just go to sch and come home and study or do homework. i need something to do. something fun, something i enjoy. something out of the house. basically i'm BORED. but i haven't the time or money to dedicate to anything. my house is a mess. really huge mess but i haven't the time or energy or mood to clean up. i wanna go out and party too.... maybe it's just the heat driving me nuts. it went up to 41.4 degrees today. the air is so thick and hot and i was in sch the whole day....

i'm gonna clean up my room, by hook or by crook tomorrow if not i'll just keep feeling crowded. not sure if it'll help cos my computer is opened up now cos i've been trying to figure out what wrong with it. don't think all the wires and transistors exposed will ease the look of my room.

wish me luck

hey girls, keep updating the blog alright? checking the blog is the first thing i do every morning nowadays and i really look forward to it.

on the contrary, i was fully aware that those 2 years were the best times of my life then. i guess prob cos i was never really happy in sec sch, i was fully aware of how much happier i was when i got to jc. just flipped through our jc photo album and got a few things to add to the list for 98 and 99....

stella: guo fu chen (i've got photographic proof....hahhaa), the ant (with photographic proof as well)
gayle: dressing up, up, up, bottle
Shihui: how to hide from mr. ho, 'HotDate' ( i remember cheryl ho guessing what HD meant and she thought it was hong dou)
Angie: multiple ear holes, writing letters on nice paper.
Qingya: tube tops

do you guys every wonder, our lives feel so tiring and stressful compared to 5 yeras back. do u think it's gonna get worse. what's going to happen in 10 years? will things be worse and we'll wonder what the hell we were thinking and grumbling about in 2004? i often wonder if i would have gone crazy by then, working under stress and losing all my hair. no matter what, i really hope i still have every single one of you with me then.

you girls are right. we are all getting so old.... it funny how our topics of conversations evolve over the years. we've got to the age, way past teenage arrogance to bring our parents out for dinner. i actually find it a real treat to spend time with gayle and angie's moms, might be due to my lack of one, i don't know, but they are really nice.

angie: wish your mom a belated happy birthday from me. wish i could have been there.

so stel, how did you feel in a wedding dress? did you start hyper-ventilating like carrie when she first put on her wedding gown? or were u more like charlotte?

fanni: i think you are working too hard, imagining everything to be advertising and PR. chill out, sista!

and to straighten upthe facts, i wouldn't consider that a honeymoon especially considering there were 3 of us and staying in a backpacker's dorm. plus the fact i could have died (details from g). but ignoring the last statement, yes, it was a good trip. got really close to his friend, Felicia. known her for 2 years and she never seemed too friendly before. but we got along fantastically while she was here and i was soooo sad when she left for s'pore. i kept asking her to extend her stay, but she was quite broke already. and the day after that, one of my 2 gfs here went back for good. leaving me to feel rather pathetic. of cos, share's here but she's got some personal problems and i haven;t even met up with her yet. i guess gabriel's around (though i don't think he'll look good in a skirt) and i haven't met up with him either. girls! pack yourselves into boxes and ship yourselves. i need a girlygang hug.

other than that, all's well, rushing through assignments and homework and bitching about my loser lecturers daily.

gayle: don't be too sad about amos, i'm sure he'll miss you too. he might be naughty but i'm sure he loves you. it was good while it lasted.


mich: be good and finish your work and go have a ball of a time!!!

hi girls

i've been away for the past few days. one of ben's friends came to visit from s'pore and we all went up to coral bay and exmouth to see the ningaloo reef. it was quite far up and took us about 12 hours to drive up. i never thought i would take such a long road trip. but it was really cool. cos we drove so far up, the weather was different. it was hot and humid and there were lots of flies! yuck. we all looked and felt like carcasses with flies all over us.

we spent a whole day driving up from 6am to 6pm and stayed at a backpackers. the 2nd day we went snorkelling in the clear blue water to see the corals and reef fishes. they were so cute and beautiful!!! had a bit of drama snorkelling for the first time. *ask gayle for details* but after that was settled, everything was fine and i love snorkelling.

on the 3rd day, we drove further up north to exmouth and found ourselves a relatively secluded beach in a national park called turquoise beach and it was simply breathtaking. the white sand, crystal clear waters and cloudless sky. i found the shimmering of light on the water really hypnotic. the bay was unique because of the strange currents coming in sideways due to the reef and it was hilarious. you'll see us trying to swim as hard and fast as we can and yet see us not going anywhere at all cos the current keeps pushing you back and swimming simply keeps you at the same position. it was hilarious. plus, the girls didn't have flippers, making our kicking rather futile. ben had the only pair of flippers on cos they fit only him. we all felt so foolish. our equipment was incomplete. our friend had only a mask and no snorkel. and i had both. so she had a hard time breathing. while basking in the sun, we spotted a turtle and they went after him while i kept a lookout. they manage to see him and chased him until he dived down. i was quite disappointed i couldn't see the turtle. it was quite big. more than half a metre wide.

by the time we went back to coral bay where our lodgings are, it was late already and the kangaroos were about and we almost hit some. it was so strange seeing a kangaroo hopping away into the sunset. it was like watching a qantas advert.

finally on the 4th day, we left early in the morning to drive back to perth, stopping at kalbarri national park to see some coastal structures. beautiful but hard to enjoy them with hundreds of flies around us. had some trouble with traffic as well, with road trains kicking up such a sand storm i was literally driving blind, unable to see what was ahead of me. it the road train had braked, i wouldn't have known.

got backl really tired at 10.30pm. fully enjoyed the trip. even the drama seemed insignificant. all the beautiful cute little fishes, the big intimidating ones, the sunsets, sunrise, the beautiful beach, scenary along the road and fun times made it such a wonderful experience. wished we had taken more pictures though.

oh dear! why did all your pets die, qingya? were they all just old or like you speculated, poisoned? it's just so odd. when we went over, they all looked fine. it's so sad.

on the topic of your personal life, i'm glad things are better now. hope everything else is fine too.

hey mich! sounds like you are having the time of your life, sounds really fantastic! i wanna be there too

did you girls work some voodoo spell or jinx me or something? cos i been working on my PR application and it turns out, i can't apply till i graduate from my masters, or more like, it'll be a lot a lot easier then. so looks like i have to delay my application till next june, when i graduate, meaning i'm free to go back end of this year. at least for a week or 2, cos ben will be here all by himself. or we could all fly off somewhere together for a week or so. what do u think?