Monday, January 24, 2005
Holiday from hell update #1
been back for....4 days, i think. at home, things have been going rather smoothly with the expected turbulence. slowly trying to calm things down. trying to keep myself occupied so as not to go crazy from boredom or thinking too much. it's a vicious cycle. i have to be busy and stress so as to not invite more input of stress and unneccessary banter. if i'm too relax and free, people pack lunchboxes and packages of stress and leave them at my door....it's as if there's a equilibrium level of unhappiness that has to be present in this house. things are really fake now.... conversations sound orchestrated and artificial. but i really am thankful for the state things are in now. i'm not too greedy
outside of the home is a different story. i'm having heaps of fun, going window shopping (i'm so extremely broke) sorry i haven't really been meeting up with you girls. have been occupied. will arrange to meet up soon. and hopefully i can get your presents (x'mas pressies) back from Sharon Claus soon.
been back for....4 days, i think. at home, things have been going rather smoothly with the expected turbulence. slowly trying to calm things down. trying to keep myself occupied so as not to go crazy from boredom or thinking too much. it's a vicious cycle. i have to be busy and stress so as to not invite more input of stress and unneccessary banter. if i'm too relax and free, people pack lunchboxes and packages of stress and leave them at my door....it's as if there's a equilibrium level of unhappiness that has to be present in this house. things are really fake now.... conversations sound orchestrated and artificial. but i really am thankful for the state things are in now. i'm not too greedy
outside of the home is a different story. i'm having heaps of fun, going window shopping (i'm so extremely broke) sorry i haven't really been meeting up with you girls. have been occupied. will arrange to meet up soon. and hopefully i can get your presents (x'mas pressies) back from Sharon Claus soon.
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